Life’s been pretty hectic. I’ve been doing alot of digital design and icon creation.

I’ve been getting on pretty well with Aiko, I’ve decided to not ‘think’ as much as I have. Damn my life is boring. Examination is coming next week.

Life. We add excitement. Just to make the next exciting think, not just as fun.

Halloween party today. Hope it goes well. Aiko is going as Tinkerbell. I’m going as Sadam goes werewolf.

I’m off to get ready now.

Well, I’ve been pretty busy with Uni work and my new car. Aiko eventually called me. She asked how I was doing and said she still wanted to be with me.

What made me a bit angry at the time of breaking up is that she called my room-mate crying and she wouldn’t even cry in front of me, and everyone knows that crying shows that you have feelings.

So now I’m with her, i’ve decided to TRY and remove all emotional aspects of the relationship. Let her see how it feels to get the same ‘love’ back in return.

I thought I could take this easy, but it’s not easy at all. I can’t bare the feeling that she’s out there not caring or even thinking about how I’m feeling.
i hate the fact that she doesn’t even try to make sure that things work out. Guess that means that she didn’t really love me as she said after all.

Damn, my life is messed up. I broke up with Aiko yesterday. I decided to make it the ultimate and final test. If she really wants to be with me then she’ll let me know.
She was so cold when I told her that I wanted to break up. Not even one tear to show me that cares about me. I feel so lonely.

I wish she would one just risk something and just tell me that she wants to be with me. Why the hell is this happening.

Well, I’ve finally set up a wireless connection in my house. Speed is not bad although I have to share it with a few people.
I guess whoever gets interested in my life and my daily rants would like to know that the day after she was acting normal. She was holding me, and hugging me. I asked bluntly. So what’s your answer. She said What do you think. So I decided to excuse her lies in the name of love. I put it to her that there are not to be anymore lies after this. Just hope my life gets easier.
Since then she’s had her period for 8 days now aparantly. A lie in order not to ‘get’ with me? Or the truth? Who knows at this point. I cant ask to check it.

So I’m just going to relax and go with the flow. Too tired of life at the moment and uni is starting. I couldn’t understand the schedule, wonder if I’m going to understand the class.

Life.