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How to be a better boyfriend

Just a few things that I’ve been reading

How to know if a girl is loyal.
http://www.askmen.com/dating/doclove_200/202_relationship_expert.html

I’ve been reading that Japanese girls can change their mind about a guy so easily and coldly, I refuse to believe that Aiko would be such a person.

I read this article

http://www.askmen.com/dating/doclove_250/288b_relationship_expert.html

which said that if a girls interest seems to drop, it means its over.
Is this true? It can’t be.

Sometimes I feel like I dont like Aiko meeting a friend thats a guy or as she said yesterday, having dinner with a friend.

This article talks about guys who become a bit jealous or paranoid.

http://www.askmen.com/dating/doclove_200/203_relationship_expert.html

It says that if there are too many coincidences it means the girl is playing with you.

Everyone says that Aiko is playing with me if I tell them some of the things I dont like, but again, I dont want to believe that.

She once said that I should never have doubt. I think doubt is natural, and the only way NOT to have doubt, is if she gives me no reason to.

You see, this “Doc’ person who gives guys advice says that women should not be trusted if too many coincedences happen.

I’m not that guy though. I want to trust her without thinking of it. I get jealous not because I dont trust her but because she’s mine and I want her to realize that I need ALOT of affection and she needs to show me alot of love.

As I said before, one of the best times I have is when we are walking and she holds my arm and tells me that she thinks I’m getting stronger… it takes so little to make me happy.

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Guess the last comment of the day is a tricky one.

If you dont call at all to your girlfriend who is in another country in vacation or call like once a week.
Will it really make her more interested in you?
Or will she simply think it’s time to move on?

As I said before, she’s promised to be with me forever….

Well, I’ve been missing Aiko quite alot and I’ve been sending her lovely emails and stuff. and when she replies to me, she’s not mean or anything, they’re just cold.
She doesn’t say love you or miss you in them anymore, she doesn’t start them, with dear darling. I feel strange.

These days whenever I called her, she never answers or yesterday when i tried to call she sent me a message saying she couldn’t answer in caps.

Then she sent me an email telling me she had dinner with a friend from her exchange program. I dont like the fact that she had dinner with a guy though.
Yes it’s fine she has friends, but I dont feel good about it….
Plus, does dinner take the whole day?

No! And if she was doing other things, can’t she tell that guy sorry just a moment and talk to me for a few minutes.

She had to learn how to prioritize.
A friend might not be there for her, but I’ll always be there to support her.

Thats why I feel so bad these day. There is no way it is because I forgot her birthday, shes not that type of person.
But she’s done it again… she’s done what she did the Summer vacation two years ago and started to ignore me.
She promised me with her heart that she wouldn’t. She swore! But she still is.

Yes it’s her vacation, yes she should have fun, but a few minutes to say hi?
And she should try her hardest to speak to me whenever she can… If she just does’n't understand this then how can we work out.

I’ve given her everything and all I ask for is a bit of love but again, she’s shown me that friends are more important to her than me…

Is this why her last boyfriend broke up with her?

Too many thoughts in my mind.

She might be thinking that I’m being jealous, or being paranoid, but it’s easy to stop these negative feelings by just saying hello and speaking to me on the phone.

My sisters asked me a question yesterday. They said where is Aiko? I said in Japan. They said, she didn’t stay with you? I said she did for a week and a half. When is she coming back, 1-2 weeks before uni starts.
Doesn’t she want to spend time with you? Also just in case you fail and have to go back? …. I was quiet.

If I’m gone wont she feel anything. Wait, I know she will feel something, but will it be as much as me? Will she feel bad that she didn’t be with me as much as I wanted to be with her?

Aiko….

well I told Aiko how I felt and I guess she knew I was disappointed, she was quite and agreed to what I had to say.
I guess that all I want. Just for her to acknowledge my opinions and requests.

But I did a VERY bad thing.
I forgot to wish her happy birthday on her birthday.

I’ve been trying ALL week to remember, i just dont know how I forgot…. I feel so bad from my heart. Even if she forgives me (which I’m sure she will), I wont forgive myself.

I bought her her birthday gift a month or more in advance, but still, if she forgot mine, i’d be so sad…..

I always call Aiko.
I remember when I asked her to call me (in Japan)
she said it was expensive. (but calling cards only cost 5-10 pounds….

anyway, she’s been spending hundreds of pounds on travelling. I’m sure she’s spent 500-700 at least in total including having fun…. and she still can’t call me herself?

Aiko Aiko, you need to learn what is important to you in life,,,