For those that are unaware. The final OK HG show was finished and sent off to the Tokyo Broadcasting company.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9VfE4j_JLzM

So Omar calls me just now and tells me, I want to go buy Battlefield 2, want to come with me to town. I’m like dude! you’re supposed to be saving money for Japan. He’s like Man I already said it doesn’t seem I’m going to make it. What the fuck!! Did he just forget the whole of yesterdays discussion? This is freaking insane!! He’s such a bitch. A selfish mother fucking bitch.

He doesn’t think that he’s ruining MY vacation as well. I hope he fucking gets owned in Battlefield.
This guy just doesn’t give up with his bullshit.

I’ve been spending alot of time with my baby sister. Since she came to England, I’ve been taking her around and trying to get hre to enjoy her time. Omar kept bothering me about when she’s leaving. I don’t know if he knows this, but she’s my favourite sister. The other one is an asshole with me most of the time, I don’t know why that one thinks I’m against her.

So I travelled all the way to Gatwick Airport yesterday to drop Hanna off so she could go back home to Bahrain. My travells were long. Omar was in London visiting his dad and I thought, since the ticket costs me 20 pounds, I might as well stop off in London and make the most of it. So I call him up and ask him if I should wait and we can walk around. He says no, he’s going to sit with his dad until 11pm and catch the last train. I said fine.

So as soon as I arrive back in Colchester, all exhausted and shit, he calls me up and asks me to pick him up from the station. He said he’d give me 3 pounds for it. I’m like no! WTF is this. 3 pounds to pick him up. He could have just told me the exact time he was going and I would have come, but he didn’t. The bitch. No matter. I told him, I don’t want to pick you up, but if you ask me like you want it, I will. He asked. I complied. So waiting at the station for him, he wasn’t there. It pissed me off that he was late. According to him, someone got their skirt stuck in the train door and was almost dragged to death. Alright. Who cares. heh heh. (evil side showing I guess).

I finally received an email back from Aiko yesterday. It was a good 2 weeks before I received anythiing. It kind of pissed me off. I don’t know why I’m waiting so long for replies… She said she’s found the job, she said she’s doing nothing at the moment. So why am I waiting so long. *sighs*.

The plan was so far, I go to Japan on the 21st. It’s been a real hard time for me, because Omar’s dad said no, Jim dropped out, and I don’t want to go to Japan all alone. This is fucking bullshit. I hope things work out soon. Time is running out. So far yesterday, I told Omar that the plan is that he saves as much money as possible, and I’ll try to make some money and loan him and he can pay me back later on. He’s agreed to that if we can find a way.

At the moment I’m working on some projects for Uni, need to finish them soon.

Hmm. I’ve been playing Zero Hour quite alot. It’s a game where I can play, beat someone, go offline and just do something else. I really wish I had a new laptop. Funny thing is. With all the money I’ve saved. It’s either new laptop or Japan. *cries*

Lately, I think it’s safe to say I’ve been avoiding some responsiblity.

Truth is, I’d rather spend time playing Final Fantasy XI then studying for Uni or making sure my car is running well.
And that’s just what I’ve been doing. I’m not totally shrugging off those other responsiblities in my life, but I’m not paying nearly as much attention as I should be, and I can’t say I’m really bothered by it.

 As far as life and everything go, things don’t feel like they’re in so much a stand-still anymore, while the flow is not as accelerated as someone like me would prefer, it’s a lot more entertaining.

I’ve finished my first class of my Associates degree in Business Administration, Business and Society, and it sucked. I hate that area of busines, I’m glad it’s out of the way for now. Time to move on to something I prefer much more, Marketing. I can already tell I’m going to enjoy this class.

There’s more to talk about, but my FFXI addiction is creeping back into my mind and I forgot to do something before logging out.

Kei, man, I hope you get a computer that can run the game soon, I think you’ll have a lot of fun.
The sad part is that you’ll need to devote a good amount of time to get to the fun parts.

More someday!

Life continues on.

Im no longer attending Rutgers University and am now enrolled and Strayer Uni majoring in Information Technology..with a more specific subject not determined. I am also working at a temp agency and I can say the money is honestly great. These are def two pluses for me. The minus is that my girl said she likes someone else…known him for one month..only at work. She has to think about what she wants. So currently my relationship is on the status of being torn down by a rent a cop. Yeah…im torn, angry, depressed, stressed, and in pain. I love life. Maybe God, Allah, Buddha, whoever the hell up there really dislikes me. O well…like I said…

Life Continues On.

Alright, so you know how things don’t just happen in ones. Or actually, sometimes somebody does something and your friend (or that person) says “it’s only one thing”, the thing is, it’s NOT only one thing. With all the ‘one’ peices of crap people do, it adds up to a HUGE ASS thing.

Anyway, so on the 15th I go to England. Hanna will be coming with me for a week to see how things are.
I know she just wants to travel, but I wonder if she will enjoy her time in England or if it’s a waste of money.

Anyway, I’ve been doing alot of promotion for Finger-Pie, working hard on trying to keep Widgx above water since nobody is really updating it. Ah well.

I hope to buy a D900 soon, I can’t wait to get it since I’m tired of the damn P990. I don’t touch the phone stock that is for Fluid Mobile. I treat Fluid Mobile as if I have no persuasion. That way, I can keep my own interests seperate from business.

I miss Aiko everyday of course. I’m trying to relax, and also I’m trying not to bother her so she can focus on getting a job. I’m sure she’s doing well. I pray for her.

My friend Johnny said he’s interested in going to Japan. That’s a huge coincidence. If I could go with a group of friends, it would be awesome!

At the moment I have three project sites to work on.
Tom’s Freebie site.
Johnny’s Memory card site
and
Shingo’s Uni site.

Today, my baby sister spoke to Nada. Nada was my first ‘real’ girlfriend.
She was an innocent and sweet girl. When I first met her, it wasn’t love. It was one of those situations where when I started to get to know her, I started to get mesmorized. I was supposed to be helping a friend of mine to get to know her, but my temptation got the better of me.

This is probably the only story you will ever read of my selfishness.

At the time, I was at a dilemma. Stop out of courtesy to my friend Waleed, or percivere. I chose the latter. I regret doing what I did to my friend Waleed, and to be honest.. I wasn’t thinking at all. I was under the impression that he liked her but was never going to do anything or make any move.

When I went to Uni in England. I had to worry every day that some other guy would move in. There was this one guy named Foolath, who tried to act like my friend, but liked Nada. So I used him in my plan.

I knew that since I was so far away from Nada, I’d be holding her back, and I knew that she would never just leave me out of the blue. So I made up this story about me getting a blowjob from some girl at uni. I figured that it would be better to make her angry at me than sad at a break up. She’ll never know that when I spoke to her on messenger and made up that story, tears dropped onto my keyboard.
I told Foolath the same story and ‘asked his opinion’, all the while, knowing that he would speak to her.

Sadly Nada started to hear some rumours from jealous people about me. Bad rumours. I feel sad that she would believe their lies so easily. But that is my sacrafice. At the time, I would have sacraficed all my friends friendships for her if it meant sh’ed move on and be happy.

I let Hanna my sister speak to Nada today. Nada was extremely stubborn. She didn’t want to listen to reason. i tried to explain the story because I could live with the thought that she must think I cheated on her after 4 years. To be honest, I never really moved on until I met my next girlfriend. At Essex, every girl seemed to remind me of Nada.

(Of course Aiko filled that void and showed me a whole knew meaning of love, Aiko was and is the love of my life.).

I guess it’s good to know Nada became cold hearted towards me. I never need to wonder ‘what if’ with her anymore. I will just remember the good memories. How I held her hand in the cinema with both our palms sweating from nervousness, the first time I saw her at Seef Mall and thinking how cute she looked, and finally, hearing her voice, yearning for me to show some sort of deep emotion, but me in my stupid adolescence, I just shrugged her words off quite simply as a man with no soul would.

Nada. I wish you all the best with your life.. I truly do. Just thinking of someone else with you makes me feel strange. But life moves on. And your life, Nada, will be one without tears with me out of the picture.

//end of memory.