Dreams and Food.

So I got up at 8 am and I’ve just been sitting around, planning my schedule.
I did shopping yesterday. I bought some nice fruit, fat free food and healthy stuff.
Yes I’m trying to be super fit. I know I’m not fat, far from it, but it’s nice to be healthy.

As usual I’m sad that Aiko is not here, but ah well.
I had a dream that I saw her and her friends and the strange thing is, near the end of the dream, she looked at me as if she was thinking “I love you, but you’re so far away” and she kissed my shoulder. I felt the pressure from her kiss and I woke up. Even after waking up I could still feel the kiss.

This girl knows I’ll do anything for her, but sadly it’s not enough.

On another note, I sent a letter with my CD to Jonathan Ross and Charlotte Church (to see if I could get a spot on their show), I’ve had no reply so far…

I have to start applying to other Uni’s to study chariot law. It seems that my education is never ending. Perhaps Azza can help me. I know that there are a limit number of Uni’s in England.

After Chariot I’ve got my masters, so that means I’ve got around 2-3 more years left depending on where I go.

Funny thing is, I don’t feel like I know anything more than what I did. I mean, once I get a job, I don’t know what I’m going to do. I feel like I’ll be a waste of space.

Oh how I wish I could have went into IT or Graphic design. Stinking Law.

Tomorrow I have a full schedule and need to organize myself nicely. I need to save up my money and organize a trip to Japan. I guess.. if I can’t find anybody… I’ll have to go alone.

Skit

Omar: Hey man I’ll see you in an hour

Kei: Ok see you then.

*4 hours later*

Kei: Dude! I was waiting for 4 hours!!

Omar: Well. I don’t know what to say. I didn’t promise anything.

Kei: *sighs*

*everyone knows thats Omar!*

Omar: That’s me!

Stupid Hackers

So Omar’s website got hacked yesterday. It was pretty fun if you think about it. He wasn’t safe, he didn’t CHMOD the correct folders and he had a super simple password.
His website is about exposing the truth about what goes on behind closed doors in Arabia. He hopes that if people see the site, they will be too afraid of doing anything bad. Many think his site is about showing naked people, but it’s quite the opposite. It’s to make people worried that they might be shown on the site if they are not carefull.

Ah well, he said he’s going to redo the site all over again and make it more secure.
I wish I knew this hacker though, he’s so stupid because he DOESN’T READ. If he was smart he’d know that the site is GOOD and not bad. Omar discovered the site was hacked when he was going to go to it to close it down for the Ramadan period.

I’ve helped Omar contact the FBI, Moroccan Police and the UK Cyber Crime department. So hopefully he’ll be arrested soon enough.

What a waste.

I’m so sad that these tickets went to waste. Perhaps next time I’ll be able to make it to the Tokyo Game Show.
I hope you are saving some money up Jim so we can go to Japan in January.

Everything is a memory

I went to tesco to do a little shopping. It dawned on me that there is nothing that I can do that will not remind me of Aiko.
Passing by the ice-cream section, I remember how Aiko used to get so excited and pass by and look for the Haagen-Dazs, when I was hanging my clothes when I got home it reminded me of of Aiko, when I took my clothes out of the washing machine I remembered how Aiko used to tell me to make sure my socks were not folded. Everything reminds me of her.

What can I do? Perhaps I should move on. Perhaps I should look for another girlfriend. It’s too hard and to be honest, I don’t want to. I just want to be happy with Aiko.

By now, people are probably tired of reading about my complaints and wishes. It’s true though. I just want to be with her. I don’t know why life is so cruel.

I was especially sad when my father said he wasn’t coming to visit. He told me he was going to come but when I asked him, he said he cancelled the trip. He doesn’t know it, but it made me sad. I was happy that he was going to come. Just sit with my father…

I now have to finish these 6 months, then I’ve got Chariot Law and my masters to think about. It’s sad though..

The Sky was Orange

The whole area looked orange. The cars, the sky, the buildings. It gave me a sense of paranoia. Yes, it’s obvious that this effect is caused by the sun going down. I’ve never seen such orangeness. I tried to capture it with my camera, but it did not show up as vividly. I remember a similar day when the sky was purple. I remember Aiko being with me as we hugged and chatted about it on the sofa. When I saw the orange sky I wanted her to be here with me. To talk…

My sleep cycle is still messed up, for some odd reason I can’t hear the alarm.

The day after tomorrow I’m going to have to fix things so I can focus on uni.
It’s getting to the point where it’ll be cheaper to rent an apartment in Chelmsford.
It’s now 8 pounds a day to go and 5 pounds to park. I can’t afford such extortionate prices… I’ll need to get up early on Monday so that I can talk to the train station to see if there is anything they can do about this.

That Panic Feeling

That feeling of Panic has come back. I’m trying to fix my sleep cycle but I can’t.
So I decided to be busy. I decide to clean the house.
As I remove the laundry, it’s smell reminds me of Aiko. It reminds me of my laziness and how she used to be there doing my laundry. Does she know that I appreciated her? As I put my things away, I get a sudden rush of lonliness. I have nobody. Yes I have friends, but they aren’t the true friends. They aren’t the friends that I can call at 5 am and they would listen to me and give me their honest opinions. I miss having Jim online, he used to listen, he knew how to act with a friend.

Being in a new university is even worse. I’ve been there for a year but I didn’t make friends. I dedicated my time to Aiko. I know I made her fall in love with me all over again. I just know it. Why is she distancing herself from me? I can never love again. It is not the normal feeling. Yes some people say you will, but I know it’s not me. I’ve been feeling this pain inside for over a year. She was close yet so far.

Even when I meet some friends. I laugh and I joke, but inside I hurt. I want to burst into tears. I want a friend to pat me on the bag and assure me that I’ll be fine. I want to be surprised by Aiko’s phone call and hear her voice. I want her…
(more…)

Ice cold.

I finally spoke to Aiko today. It was around 8 and she said she was tired so I called an hour later.
I asked her if she got her package and she said she didn’t yet.
I told her it was important that she got it soon. She said she would but she was busy with work.
So I said, why don’t you ask a friend to pick it up. She said because it’s in Hiromi’s name.. so I said, if it’s in Hiromi’s name then she should pick it up. I then said that she should ask them to redeliver it and she said she’d be at work. So I said, how about if they deliver it in the weekend. She said she works on Saturday. I said, oh I didn’t know you work 6 days a week. She said, some weeks she works, some she doesn’t…. So I don’t understand, why doesn’t she pick it up on the week that she does.
I asked her if she received my emails and she said yes. I asked her why she didn’t reply and she said she would when she ‘feels to reply’

Why is it so soon that you already can forget about me?
You work hard and I don’t know what you do in Japan but if you can go to a party you can send me a short email… Your coldness is strange to me.

What do you want from me Aiko? Is my love not enough? Is not having someone who wants you a special feeling? You said you would still love me. You said you wished we could be together.

A person who doesn’t care enough to sacrafice herself will suffer in the future. Then again, you are cold so you probably wont notice it.

*sighs again*

So I sent Aiko a package over 10 days ago with some stuff she wanted from the UK, with a nice note and a gift. Now the day before yesterday I called her. I said ‘did you get the package?’ she said ‘yes but it’s at the post office because I wasn’t home’. Alright… so I was wondering why she wasn’t going to get it. She then said that she was on the way out and couldn’t talk… she said I should call around 11 or 12, I said fine. So I called at 11… no answer… I called at 12… no answer… I called at 10am… no answer.. So wtf is going on.

What I don’t understand is WHY can’t she TALK and go out at the same time…
So many times I’ve been out with Aiko and she spoke to her friends on the phone…

Viral Ads

So it seems as if advertisers are trying to get in on the whole ‘viral video’s’ deal and are trying to pass off their ads as regular vids.

http://viralchart.com/ submitted a video to Finger Pie.com and made it seem as if it was a person submitting a video, when in fact it was a Microsoft Advertisement.

Advertisers will always try to be cunning, but I say that we all need to be wary of what’s true and what’s not. Especially after that damn Lonelygirl15 fiasco.

Qatar, my home.

Quite a few people have wondered what my country looks like.
Here you all go, a few snaps.

Yes it’s great and yes… I know you expected sand and camels everywhere, sorry to disappoint you all.

Click here for pics

Skit

K: Hey man, you’re leaving for Bahrain in 2 days, you shouldn’t sleep in the afternoon, try to stay up as long as you can so you can fix your sleep cycle for when you get there.

O: I need to relax, I’ll fix my cycle when I get back.

“Everyone knows thats Omar”
O: That’s me!

(Like wtf! you’re going to fix your sleep cycle for Bahrain when you get BACK from Bahrain :S)

For the record

Just for the record, Omar isn’t my only friend, he’s just the only fucking bitch that annoys me.
Sometimes he’s cool, but most of the time, he pisses me off because he acts all selfish and lazy.

It’s like, nobody talks about the ‘good’ friends. I mean, if I were, I’d mention Hakam, Hamed, and a few others as being friends that I can truely rely on. Those are people that would go out of their way to help me if I needed something.

It’s just that there is one asshole in the middle who assumes so much that it makes your head explode.

I’m going to be starting a new thing on the blog called “Everyone Knows it’s Omar”. When you see that phrase, it means it’s story time and you’ll see a typical Omar situation.

I’ll start it off

K: Hey man, get up it’s 4 pm.
O: Oh man I’m so tired of sleeping, I need to sleep.

“Everyone knows that’s Omar!”
O: That’s me!

why oh why oh why

Isn’t it strange how you can feel like you have no purpose?
I really wanted to go on a trip to Japan but it doesn’t seem likely.
Nobody’s going to be going with me sadly so I think the plan is going to be scrapped.

I just wanted to go for 5 days and it doesn’t seem possible now. *Cries*

Anyway, the sites are doing well, my sister has been having problems with my other sister. I don’t want to interfere or say anything. I always seem to get blamed for things when I have nothing to do with it.

Going to Chelmsford tomorrow to check out some books and sell the Nintendo DS to this guy. That’s my plan and that’s about it.

note: if Omar reads this. YOU NEED TO LEARN TO DO STUFF AND DONT JUST BE ALL TALK!