Sometimes I just want to explode…
Is Omar stupid?

He called me today… said hey man lets do somethinig. I said “I’m going to the gym, then to the other place so we can chill”

he said “who chills”

I said “WE chill”

(Chill means relax btw…)

So he said ok fine.

Now it’s 10pm. He called me and asked what I will do tomorrow. I said ‘I don’t have any plans’
I said I’m going to McDonalds now then the apartment to chill (yes I know the irony of going to the gym then mcdonalds). He said “ok have fun…”

I said “wait… what”

Seems it’s one of Omar’s tricks where he wants to pretend he didn’t know what were supposed to do.

So I just said “ok ok no problem, talk to you later”

He makes me angry sometimes. Calls me and calls me and calls me to do something. Finally we have a plan and he doesn’t even follow it…. *sighs*

Yesterday some people through a party for Chieko’s birthday. I didn’t have much notice so printed out a card for her. Hope she likes it.

We started in SU bar, it’s a bar in the university. We were chatting and joking. I met some new people which was nice. After a while they just decided to go to Chieko’s room (it was her birthday). Chieko said, “do you want to come?” so I agreed and we all followed. She was so happy. It made me smile to see someone enjoying their birthday so much.

We were all sitting, chatting and joking while drinking some drinks. Actually Chieko’s birthday was the next day, so we waited until 12 to say cheers and happy birthday. I met a guy named Tomo (I will call him Tomo 1), he wanted Vodka and said “My friend left me a present in my home of Vodka, I’m going to go bring it”. He was a bit drunk so I went with him. When we got back there was 20 seconds left the cheers. So he poured the drinks and we counted. 10! 9! 8! etc… Finally they drank it and…… It’s WATER!! His friend tricked him.

So he went to get some vodka for them again. When I got back a lot of people were drunk. I met this guy that the girls called Mr. Playboy. He was as old as me but he had an appearance which made him oddly look much more mature for his age.

We chatted with each other. He remembered me as the DJ. Within a few moments the guys were all chatting about how they prefer older women. 10minutes later, I said “where is he?” I looked outside
of the window and he was walking with a girl. So faaasst!! I can’t believe it… Mr. Playboy?

Anyway, so Tomo 1 came back to the room but he was so high… All of a sudden he was vomiting. Oh no!!! So Tomo 2 and I picked him and moved him to the bathroom as fast as possible. It wasn’t a pretty sight. We were in a small bathroom helping this guy. The girls kept saying “thank you.. thank you for being so nice”. I smiled. In my mind I was thinking (… why am I too nice to help someone I dont know).

So finally someone said, he was smoking weed… I got angry. I said “If I know who gave him drugs, I’ll break his face.”. Everyone was quiet.

Weed can make someone be scared like there is danger. So Tomo 1 jumped up all of a sudden and started to run.
You know I hate the subject of drugs… It’s so stupid… Why do people not control themselves?? Me and Tomo 2 quickly caught him. We took him to the kitchen and helped him relax and to vomit.

Finally me, Tomo2, Christina and Yulia walked him home and made sure he was fine.

I went back to the room and everyone was relaxed. Everyone thanked me and Tomo 2. I started to joke with everyone again. I noticed that a lot of the girls were drunk. I sat down on a chair. Helped the people clean up and then said “ok guys lets go… everyone is tired”. Everyone needed a good rest after the incident.
So they got up and we all went home. I remember sitting on the chair thinking. (I’m so tired.. I wish there is someone to hug me and take care of me after all of this..)

I returned home. Exhausted. I sank into my bed…

Had a great phone call with Anri today. Was awesome. As soon as I finished it, I noticed I spoke for 30 minutes. So I called T-Mobile and let them add a special service called International Options. It lets the calls price get cut to almost half. That’s good~~~ I can make more phone calls now

Hameeda my friend from Bahrain also came. She spoke to Anri as well.

Lets see. We chatted, I went to university, we went to McDonalds (BAD BOY!), then we came home, chatted, she fell asleep and then went to the other apartment.

I played a bit of Final Fantasy. Killed the Demon wall finally! (I’m sorry if this is childish compared to my normal behaviour but i didn’t play video games for sooo long!)

Vanessa came and we all chatted and took pictures

Such a nice and simple day.

Wish I could chat more.

These days I’ve been very confused. I don’t know what the feeling inside me is. I can’t describe it. I feel so much and I do so much but I feel like I am not satisfied.
I usually do so much and fill my time with jobs, university, and work but now it’s easter, I’ve almost finished everythiing.

I’m sitting in my room now and I feel a bit empty. What’s going on? I looked around my house. Shall I clean? I’ve cleaned everything. My vacation. Is there any more to plan? No… I’ve done it all. Ok I’ll call some friends. Damn it!!! Most of the people have already travelled…

There is also another reason for my confusion. It’s attraction. There is someone special to me. I don’t know what can happen with her. These days when I speak to her I feel excitement. Even though we don’t share many words, each letter that comes out of her mouth is like a magnet. It draws me nearer to her. That’s why they call it attraction. Two people act as magnets and hopefully through their unique personaility, they can pull each other until finally there is a moment of happiness.
In my eyes, she looks perfect. From what I have seen she is a wonder of beauty. It’s her inner self which draws me in. She feels has to lose some weight, but she doesn’t… but seeing her want to dicipline herself makes me feel that she’s a good person. Someone who doesn’t mind to work hard for something that is worth it.

For now… this confusion is only relieved by my beating heart.

However when I don’t speak to her I feel I need speed. I need excitement. I have so many dreams that need to become a reality. Why do I feel this way?

Yesterday the time changed. England is now +1 hour. I had planned the day before that I’d go to a Chinese restaurant with Eugene, Linlin, Omar, Michael, David, Shawna, Eugene’s friend, Viki and Maggie.

Yes yes, it’s a big group.
So what happened was in the morning I got too many calls. I was tired because I slept at 6 am. So I put my phone on silent.
I woke up at 3 and noticed OH MY GOD! I’m late! So I got dressed, picked some friends up and went to the place to eat Dim Sum.

I sat in between Maggie and David. We had two tables and that was the only seat free. Maggie was wearing pink. She looked nice. She has the power to show off different styles . Like a young girl. Shawna’s style was different. She looked like she just finished from a Baby Phat commercial. It’s cool.

We chatted, ate, and I apologized for being late (that rhymes!). They then wanted to go watch a movie. So I asked the others if it was ok. They said it was fine so I dropped them home. Shawna then came to pick me up from my home. We went and watched Mr. Bean’s holiday. It was quite funny. I liked it. It was like how the old Mr. Bean shows used to be.

Maggie sat next to me. When she laughed I felt like there was an innocense in her tone. Shawna and David giggling.

When the movie finished we all got up and walked back and chatted. Everyone was tired. When I got back home I did some work. I relaxed. I then started to think of my vacation plans a bit more.

Flo came over to thank for me for being hospitable. I said it was my pleasure. She gave me a box of donuts as a thank you. It was great. I LOOOVE donuts. Her boyfriend looked nice. I never met her before but he had a friendly face. His smile looked warm. She said he was a doctor. I felt happy for them.

So today is the big day. It’s most likely going to be the last DJ event for myself in Essex so I hoped it will be a good experience.

I made the cds (put some music for Anri, made a special Beyonce mix, and a chinese song to make Shawna happy), the track list, got dressed and ready, then went to Vanessa’s house to have hotpot with some of her friends that were coming to the party. It was nice. It was so nice of them to get things ready. Her friends were shy though and very quiet. I tried my best to start a conversation but they were too quiet. I had to use this fish type of sauce but the packet was open and I didn’t realize it and it went on my jeans. Uh oh… it had oil in it… I had to wash it fast or else it would stain. I was a bit annoyed that Vanessa didn’t tell me it was open. So I ran home put in the washing machine and had to change my idea for my fashion for the party. I came back, ate, laughed, enjoyed, then I fixed her pc and left.

I then waited for Flo and we went to tesco, bought balloons, and went to the club. I met the committee members who were setting everything up, blowing balloons and so on.

Then the panic started. The Student’s union were supposed to bring the headphones, and smoke machine. They didn’t. They also forgot to stock the place with Asahi. Made me angry.

I had to DJ without headphones which is fine, but it’s a bit tricky when you are trying to balance because you can’t hear the next song that’s playing and can’t start the music in the spot you want unless you guess.

Also the dancing lights were not working. Stupid Student’s Union.

Even though there were those problems, things started a bit slow but then started to speed up. People started to dance, enjoy, drink free sake and snacks, and it started to get so good that people started to come from the party next door into mine. I felt excited.

I had friends, society members, and strangers all excited. Omar came and suggested that there be a rap competition because we needed to think of games for the prizes. I worried. As soon as he announced it, people started to get scared and some went to the other party. I started to get stressed.

Finally I decided, ok.. it’s time to use super Kei engery. I told omar to put on the HG clothes and to get people excited. They did. We grabbed the mic, gave out some prizes, played some music. Then i played Livin’ La vida loca and wore my HG outfit and started to dance.

I break danced a bit, got some cheers and went back to the DJ booth to make more music. People started coming back into the club and jumped around. I was happy. My final day was a success.

It was then off to the after party… read “The after party”

When I arrived home, Anri called me. We spoke. My smile was huge. I’m so happy that she’ll be able to see England!!

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I’m going to finish getting ready for the Japanese party now!

I organized the last couple of days blog posts

David drove me to London today. On the way there I invited a few people for tomorrow. Hopefully my close friend Shingo will arrive. It’s probably going to be my last DJing event for quite a while since I need to focus on my studies. We went to do some jobs and eat. Since I was there I decided to go to Japan Center and get some stuff for the party since I would help save time. I bought some Sake, Snacks and a few other things. To be honest, I enjoyed the drive to London. I had a good chat with David.

I then worked out and did some exercise, I wanted to do more but I had to control myself or else I’d be too tired for tomorrow.

Tomorrow is going to be a busy day for me!! Hope I can get some nice messages on my phone

I need to make sure all the stuff and gifts are ready.
Make sure the music is finished.
Take my laptop with charger.
Make sure the wires and DJ equipment is set up.
Ensure there are balloons.
Get my clothes ready.
hmm what else? Hope I don’t forget anything.

Right now my pc is scanning for some problems. Hope it can find the problem. Time to go to bed now… need my energy.

I’m already full of good feelings inside me at the moment Now I need energy.

Today was an good day for me! Went to Chelmsford for uni and enjoyed my time walking around the town after classes. It was extra great because of a special reason. I’ll keep that a secret for now. I’ll say this though. Simply hearing this person’s voice gave me ALOT of excitement

After finishing from Chelmsford I then came home and started to work on my pc. I wanted to find the source of the problem I was having. I don’t know what’s going on but I’m going to take my pc ONE more time to the shop and if they don’t fix it, I’ll demand my money back. It’s not acceptable.

I also went to have some dinner with Maggie, David, Shawna and her friend Vicky. We ate at a place called Strada. They served Italian food. From our discussion I could see that Shawna was a strong willed person. She knew exactly what she wanted and was very conversational. Those are very good qualities. I’m happy that David and Shawna could be together. Each of them has their own qualities which can allow them to become a great couple.

Maggie looked very cute. She has a nice sense of fashion. When she’s listening to a conversation, her face always looks interested. Well I at least hope that what I’m saying is interesting :p Maybe I speak too fast. She also has a nice tan.

We all went to the cinema and watched the movie 300. Now I want to say that it was a great movie, and the effects were amazing, but as usual, it’s a perfect example of Hollywood using stereotypes, messing up history and making the Persians look bad.

(DONT READ THIS IF YOU HAVEN’T WATCHED THE MOVIE AND WANT TO WATCH IT)

It’s so stupid because they made the leader a black guy (which is impossible). They made it seem like the persians were hentai monsters. There were also ALOT of mistakes! First of all, the boss was a huge black guy that wore make-up, gold jewelry and called himself God. Now that’s automatically stupid. If he was persian and if he was a Muslim, I know for a fact that it is against the religion to call yourself God, it’s against the religion for a man to wear most jewelry, against the religion for piercings, against the religion for a man to wear gold, and also against the religion for a man to wear makeup.

What’s funny is that they tried to make the Greek army look like they were heroes even though they tortured their own children and killed people with no honour.

Anyway, I know it’s just a movie but sadly many people might believe it or something!
(OK YOU CAN READ NOW!)

I also decided to remove one of the Oxygen Network member sites. It used to be a nice humour site, but it now has some adult content which is too extreme and I don’t want anybody to be disappointed in me because they are a partner. If I remove any relation with it, I think it’s better.

I then stayed awake because my friend Flo was supposed to come over for two days while in colchester. I waited until 4 am until Flo arrived! I was so annoyed but as usual my kind heart didn’t mind.

Quick update!
Came back home today.
Waited three hours on the train because of a delay.
Sent and received some great messages from Anri. ^_^ <– thank you!
(It was strange weather when I was on the train. Sunny but snowing! Anri gave me one of the most biggest smiles that I almost ripped my mouth! Only joking but it was a big smile. She said “I sent you the snow flakes”)
Went to town to eat.
Smiled
Came home and did some work
Checked my sales for the day
Smiled
Went to dinner with Michael, Omar, David and his room mate.
Came home.
Updated the blog…
Starting to fall asleep.

So today my father came to London for a day. I actually thought he had business here but it turns out that he came here just for me! It took me around 2 hours to arrive to London because there were some delays with the train as well.
I finally arrived near Marble Arch at the Cumberland hotel. It’s quite a popular hotel because of it’s location. It’s exactly on Oxford Road so its great for shopping.
I was wearing a brown suit jacket, blue shirt, grey t-shirt and black pants. I wanted to look my best. I went up to the top floor and knocked the door.
“ROOM SERVICE!!”
My father opened the door and smiled.
Father: “Hey man what’s up? Let’s go out!”
Me: “ok… where are we going?”
Father: “Shopping!”

These days the weather has been great but for some strange luck the weather today was very bad! It started to rain as soon as we left the hotel. My father said, ‘let’s go get some umbrellas’. Ok.. lets go!
So we walked down Oxford Road and bought two umbrellas. We then started to pass many stores and we looked around. We then went into Selfridges and started to talk about different things. University life, what he used to do when he was young, and then he asked me about girls and if I had a girlfriend at the moment. I explained to him there was somebody that I was interested in. He asked me “Where is she from. No! Wait don’t tell me! She’s Asian right?”. It seemed that even my father knew that I found Asian girls to look attractive. It’s not just their looks, but personality which I like. I smiled and nodded my head. We then looked around at stores for a pin stripe suit jacket. He knew I was searching for a good one. He suggested we go look at Kenzo, Boss, or Armani, I said ok. We looked around until we started to get hungry.

We decided to go to Picadilli to go eat something. So we entered the usual place. T.G.I. As we were eating, we joked and chatted about my future. He explained to me that he wanted me to start building my homes soon and maybe start a new business with him. I said it would be good to start something new with him. He then asked me what I wanted to do. I said “I don’t really know. Maybe go to Hollywood for a while and see if I can be an actor, maybe go to Shanghai and work for a bit, maybe go to Japan because I like the country.” I stopped for a moment. I took a deep breath. What would he say?

He looked at me and said “It’s fine. It’s your future. but just remember that it’s better to have security than always have fun.” I told him that it wasn’t about fun, it was about dreams and that I’d rather be able to hold someone’s hand and accomplish my dreams than to be bored and lonely in an office. He agreed with me.

After eating we went for a bit more shopping before finally going back to the hotel. I told him that I DJ at events. It was something that I never shared. You know, I keep some things private from my family. I always felt that they wanted to hear the successfull business man story. Not the man who follows his dreams and tries everything in life. My father said “Do you like doing that sort of thing?”. I thought he was going to say it was stupid. I said “yes.. people enjoy my style and I give the crowd what they want to listen to”. Again I waited for his reply. I tried to read his eyes. “Sounds great! I’m glad you can do that!” I was shocked. It was twice now that he supported me… He usually doesn’t act that way.

When we got back to the hotel we relaxed and finally my father said, “so where do you want to go?”. It was dark now so there weren’t alot of places. I felt like he wanted me to take him somewhere. There was nowhere to go in such short notice… We finally decided to walk on Edgeware road.

For those people who don’t know it, imagine China town, but a whole road full of Arabian stuff. Of course, just as we were going out, it started to rain heavily and the wind was strong. So strong that my father’s umbrella broke! So we decided to get an arabic style sandwhich (Shawarma) and then go back and just chat.

When I went back to the room, we watched a few comedies and talked about a few things. I was glad that we could talk so normally with each other. I wasn’t the son taking advice from father anymore. I was the 23 year old man who was giving my father advice on business ideas and sharing stories of my adventures.

In the past I always felt as if I was the father to my family sometimes since I was the one who always gives everyone advice when there was trouble. But this time.. the feeling was different. It was just two guys talking.

He asked me what I would do in Easter vacation and I told him that I was planning a little vacation. He then offered to pay for it. I don’t like accepting money from anyone, especially my father. He works hard so I feel he should keep it for himself. However he convinced me. He then gave me some 550 for the mobile phone which I wanted. It was so great of him to do this…

Oh, he also bought me this special shoe! It’s called the Adidas 1 DLX. This shoe is amazing. It has a computer chip and a small motor inside of it. What it can do is sense the speed, weight and pressure and the shoe changes it’s softness and hardness before you touch the ground so that you feel super relaxed. Each step you take changes it’s pressure. It’s so amazing!

Look at it!!

The next day I woke up and my father had already left. I wanted to tell him to have a safe trip and say good bye, but I think he didn’t want to wake me up. There on the table I saw something shining. I won’t say what it is, but you can just guess. On it was a tag, it said “S350″… What a surprise… What could I say? I was speechless…

I wanted to buy something for my father. What can I give a man who has everything? I don’t know…

All I know now is that April is going to be great. I can take my special person to a have a great night out! Get ready ok?

As I was on the train today, I looked outside the window as I was on the way to London. The sky was a bit crowded but the sun was there. I was listening to my iPod and I was specifically listening to HOME MADE 家族 (Kazoku) - Thank You!! and sending some emails on my mobile. The clouds.. it was such a strange site. It looked as if they were so low that they brushed against the trees. It looked like the sun was fighting to come out and that it’s rays were pushing them down that I could almost touch it.

I had a thought. Wouldn’t it be great if I could put a cloud in a jar? I thought that it would be such a great gift for someone special. A small peice of the sky.

The song I was listening to matched the atmosphere. It was cheerfull. I felt empowered. Just as the song said.. “Thank you”.

You should always say thank you to everything in life. Say thank you to the bad moments for teaching you the importance of the good things. Say thank you to your parents for always being there for you. Say thank you to yourself… why? Because did you ever do that? I don’t think so. I don’t think anybody has actually thanked themself for anything.

Try it! Feel strange? Maybe. Feel good now? I hope so. ^_^

Today was a pretty good day. I went to the Thai restuarant with a bunch of friends and had a good time. The problem was that the service was very slow. We waited almost an hour and a half until we started to eat.
The seating arrangement was Maggie on my left, Matt on my right and Shawna (David’s Girlfriend) was in front of me.
There was a pleasant atmosphere. I tried to get everyone to chat so I would start a topic between a few people then turn around and start another topic with someone else. At the end of the day, it seemed that everyone had a nice dinner.
To be honest, I felt a bit sorry because I didn’t feel the food was that great. It didn’t taste like real thai food.

Later on I went to my other flat to have some drinks with Vanessa, Michael, David, Shawna, Hussain, Camilla and Maggie. I mixed a few random drinks and let everyone choose what they liked. I was happy that they liked the mixes I provided. Perhaps a few of them were too sweet in my opinion.

As a few of them were watching tv and chatting, myself, David, Michael and Camilla were talking about our vacation plans for easter.
David invited me to Shanghai again. He invited me a couple of times actually. I really enjoyed Shanghai and I was planning to go on a Euro trip or go to Tokyo, but he gave me such a long list of reasons that I should go with him. He said he had an apartment and knew some good places and that if I went with him I wouldn’t have to worry about anything. I was a bit reluctant at first.

Then later on we went on the balcony and David said “You like racing right?” I said “yeah”. He said, “if you come I can show you some good place to race some F1 cars”. I was a bit excited. He also mentioned some hot clubs and so on. I started to get very excited. So I said “ok let me ask my friend Hussain what will happen because I promised him first”.

We went inside and i spoke to Hussain. He said “No man, I want you to go to Shanghai because I’ll visit a friend in Egypt or maybe stay in England”. He was very serious about it. So I told David and started to get even more excited. So I suggested we go back to my home to check the prices. He said “yeah man let’s do it”.

So we all went to the other apartment. I checked online for the prices and then checked my visa. To be honest, I don’t really care where I travel for my easter. I just want to have fun, but Shanghai would be nice. After all, it seems David really wants me to go and it could be good fun.

I’m surprised that I could meet someone so similar to me. Pitty that I meet cool people so late in the year.

Anyway, we chatted had fun and they all left. I’m glad that I could please everyone today, hope to do it again. Peace! ^_^Y