I woke up today and my stomach was hurting me. I don’t know why, was it because I just ate some spicey food the night before? I’m not sure. I went to the bathroom and then started to get dressed.
I woke up naturally at 12pm. It’s earlier than usual, but what’s happened to me? I used to wake up at 8am? This is not good.

I had two things to do today. Send the mobile to Anri and to go to T-Mobile to get a sim card for Saleh’s contract. I’ve been paying for his contract for so long and my phone bills have been 150 pounds and then I thought! “Hey!! I could use Saleh’s sim card since I’m paying for it”. I went to go order one. They said it would cost me 15 pounds…. 15 pounds for a stupid replacement sim card? It’s free with vodafone… T-Mobile are getting a bit greedy I think.

When I went downstairs to go to the car I saw a package for me. It was just on the floor… this is the SECOND time the post man just left my package outside. What a lazy country I live in. The UK should learn from Qatar. If a person is not working properly, FIRE HIM.

Anyway, it was from Shiingo! He bought me Beeno! I love those snacks!! I sent him a message but I didn’t get a reply.

When I went to town I did what I had to do and ate a sausage. It was tasty. I think that’s the only think about Colchester that I’ll miss. I had an argument with someone today too. I got so annoyed so i thought it was better not to speak. Sometimes when you argue with someone you don’t always need to be stubborn. You have to learn to choose which argument is worth it.

When I went home, I worked on my site and my project and had some dinner. I still have to go to the Colchester Council to tell them to STOP SENDING ME BILLS because I’m a student.

Oh… need to finish www.iloveqatar.net I want it to be a nice little site where people can get information!

My London weekend was great, I had a great time. I got to be with my girl, I got to see my father, I got to do a bit of window shopping and to be honest the weather was quite nice.

After eating at one of my favourite restaurants, I was able to share some quality time with my girl.
Before talking about that though, I want to talk about the Thistle Hotel.
It is the worst hotel I’ve ever stayed at in my life. Although the location was good on Oxford Circus, it was crap. I CANNOT believe it’s 4 stars, I’d give it TWO stars maximum.

When I arrived the system was down so I had to stay in the cue for a long time. Ok the hotel staff were giving free drinks, but I couldn’t understand why they were so slow with checking people in. When I get to the table, the woman asks if I have my coupon… coupon? I registered online… I don’t have a coupon. The manager spoke to the receptionist in front of me. “If his name doesn’t have a coupon then he has to pay”. She was speaking as if I wasn’t there! I PAID in advance, and they want me to pay again?

Luckily, they didn’t ask me to, so I was alright. I thought the trouble was over, but when I got into the room, someone came in! It was a staff member who said the room should be empty. I showed her my check-in card and she apologized. 20 mins later, ANOTHER person tried to come in. This time it was a cleaning lady. I just heard “sorry” and she closed the door.

No problem right? WRONG! The room was so smelly! The next day when I woke up and was naked, ANOTHER person opened the door. This time there was NO SORRY, the person just shut the door! What the hell? The THISTLE Hotel in Marble Arch is crap! DON’T use it.

Anyway, lets talk about the rest. I enjoyed walking around with my girl later on and basically did some window shopping. I held her hand tightly. I tried to look my best. I wanted to show her that I take the time to look good for her.

In my heart I was feeling sad, but I tried to show a brave face. Going to Qatar and being seperated (even if it’s for a month or so) is difficult, but I’ll do my best! I’ll always smile and always be there!

Wow my arm hurts from typing! Need to relax a bit.

Poor blog. No updates for it. I think that I’ve been a bit busy. Tomorrow I go to London and will stay there for the weekend. I just need a break I guess. I’ll be there with my darling.

These days I’ve been trying to be strong. I need to try and hide any sadness inside me. I need to be able to make sure that there is no sadness for when I leave. I feel bad when I act a bit cold, but deep inside of me, my emotions are swimming.

Another thing that annoys me is my father. I was feelign good about going to Qatar. I was convincing myself that I’d be able to do so much and fulfill some of my goals. When I called him today to ask him some advice, he was act rude, and his words made me feel like I didn’t want to go back at all.

I raised my voice a bit and he seemed to go quiet. Maybe he understood he wasn’t acting nicely to me. All I know is that if he wants to be my friend or business partner, he’ll need to realize that there has to be equality.

I’m the person who looks at the future, but I never forget the past. I use my past to make a better future. Sadly my father uses the past to hold people back. Let’s see what happens.

So earlier in the week, Pan’s friend Kan needed to borrow the car. Pan told me not to give it to anyone no matter what so I decided to ask him first. When I was chatting to him on messenger, he told me not to tell Kan no. However I didn’t want to be in the middle of anything so I told Pan to tell Kan directly.

Finally Pan said that Kan could have the car. I needed the car during the weekend urgently so I told Kan to please bring it back on Friday. So he told me 100% that he would.

Sadly on Friday I was told that he couldn’t bring back the car because of the police and it was a long situation. I felt a bit angry because I now had to find another solution for the weekend. I had to do alot of things and ended up spending money on taxis going everywhere. I was told that I’d get it the next day so I said fine.

Sadly I get a call from Kan’s friend and he said that he couldn’t bring the car. I started to get frustrated and annoyed. So as I usual I said please bring the car as soon as you can. I was then told Monday morning. Monday morning passed. There was nothing. I got a message from Kan around 10pm and he said they would be there at 12. I told him I would be tired so if he could bring it to me the next morning it’s better. I got a message from his friend at the same time “Hi I’ll be there in 1hour, I have a gift for you to give to your parents to say sorry”. I thought “Oh thats nice of him, but he doesn’t need to do that”. Of course, 1 hour passed and they were not here.

I then saw the bmw pass my window around 11:30. I waited for my bell to ring but nobody rang it. I didn’t know what they were doing outside. So I waited 15 minutes and they finally rang the bell. The guy came up and said hello. That’s all. When he left I chatted with Kan for a bit. At the same time I was wondering (where is the gift?) Of course I would still reject it, but it was strange that it was not there. I was just happy that the issue was sorted. I really didn’t want Pan to be disappointed with me and I always keep my promise to take care of something.

Today I got a call from hussain, he asked me if I could drive his family to Lakeside. I felt uncomfortable so I thought, let me ask Kan, maybe he’ll want to come and keep me company while I wait for Hussain’s family to finish.

Kei: Do you want to go to Lakeside?
Kan: I can’t Maggie is sleeping in a deep sleep. (Maggie is staying with him at the moment)
Kei: Ok… anyway let me know… (sadly no call)

So Hussain finally came over and told me that he knew I was uncomfortable taking his parents alone, so he decided to do the shopping in the town. So I took him to the town and helped him choose a suit for his graduation ceremony which was tomorrow. I then went home and started to clean my house. As I was walking in, I noticed that the car was parked in the wrong parking place so I decided to move it.

When I went in I noticed that there was so much Ash on the dashboard, on the seats, and on the back, there was also a mess of papers and maps. I felt a bit annoyed, they should have at least cleaned it! I then looked at the ashtray and there were cigarettes…

What the hell… Pan doesn’t like people smoking in his car, now it’s dirty, so I have to clean it. I sent Kan a message and he said they’ll pay for it and asked me what to do.

Kei: “We should take it to the cleaner near tesco to clean it”
Kan: “when?”
Kei: “We can go tomorrow. Come to my house, we’ll go to clean it, then go to town to eat”
Kan: “I can’t, Maggie wants to go to London tomorrow”
Kei: I started thinking. (Ok… so…what should I do?) I said, “We can go thursday morning”
Kan: “How early?”
I felt that he didn’t want to wake up so I just told him I’ll do it myself. He suggested Friday but I don’t like to leave things so late. I don’t like to leave things like this. So I just said “no I’ll do it myself”.

Kan’s a nice guy but this car is too much responsibility and I regret that Pan left it with me.

So I get a call from my father and I’m told that he’s going to visit me. He said that he was going to make two trips. The first trip is a business trip and he wanted to see me and the second trip would be to help me move my stuff.

He said he was coming on the 19th and asked if I could see him on the weekend. I need to see if I can arrange my schedule that way. I also guess I’m going to have to plan my plane ticket that day.

I’m starting to feel stressed again, I need to finish quite alot.

So Omar is gone. He’s left my house. He left a few ‘gifts’. Gifts of dirt. He left his lovely garbage in my house and didn’t even bother to say ‘thanks for letting me stay’. At least my house will be clean again.

Oh well. I’m working hard on my dissertation at the moment and I’m also working hard on my websites.

I’m organizing everything for the future nicely at the moment

Omar has such a filthy mouth. Sitting on the sofa saying bad word after bad word. He just wont shut up. Here is my quote. “I’d rather kiss a ass full of shit, than his filthy ass lips”. I don’t know who on earth would like the words that comes out of his mouth.

Dirty and smelly guy.

Well Omar the liar bet me to write this on my blog just now and he said he’d do something if I write it. So I did. Omar’s nickname is Omar the Liar, so after I wrote it, did he do anything? No…

So the day before yesterday I got pissed of. I went to www.tv-hotspot.com (the site I set up for Saleh) and I noticed he’s moved his site.
I felt, oh this is great, ditched again. I was really angry to the point that I was going to smash something. Saleh could have easily just told me that he wanted to move and then I could have cancelled the hosting and NOT have paid for three months of hosting for nothing.

Is it me or am I paying alot for him? I felt sorry for Salem because he’s been very nice to me and I felt like I might have complained too much to him. I basically told him that I understood that at the end of the day, they were cousin’s and family came first, but I hoped that he’d be able to show Saleh that what he did was wrong so that it’s not repeated with future friends. All I know is, is that friends or not, I’ll still remember the fun times rather than the disappointing ones.

Oh well.. *sighs*

These days I haven’t been so much. I’ve been going to the gym, going to the town to do some things which I need to do, and hanging out. My weekends are fun of course though

What’s my gym program? I usually do some bench presses, use the dumb bells, 10 minutes running, 5 minutes rowing, and 5 minutes of hard biking. I then working out shoulders and end with stretches. When I get home, I then do around 75-100 sit ups. I like having a flat stomach.

I also have been trying to find the best deal possible for some mobiles phones. I hope that the people who receive them will be satisfied with them.

Hmm… oh, I’ve been finding some amazing deals online! Apple made a mistake on their site and listed a Hard Disk at 19 pounds instead of 199. Orange mistakenly listed a phone for 10 pounds, and Littlewoods got me a discount of around 50 pounds! I really know how to save money!

My real focus is with my dissertation though.

Yes I am alive. Not much has been happening or I’ve been too stressed to write everything that’s been happening so I haven’t been updating as often.

I’m just trying to organize my life and my future at the moment. I hope that everything will work out.

I have also been thinking about my personal attitude. Sometimes when I talk on the phone or I have a serious moment, it seems my tone changes. It’s easy for someone to misunderstand my tone of voice. Sometimes though, I know that when I get stressed or when I’m angry, I sometimes forget that if I’m talking to a friend or someone I care about on the phone, I should not talk to them unkindly.

I think that I’m patient, but sometimes there is so much in my life that I feel overwhelmed. Sometimes I may take out my anger on someone who doesn’t deserve it and for that I am sorry, but I hope that my reaction is understandable. I’ll try my best to be a better person.

In the past, I may have not even noticed that I wasn’t acting nicely, but I think I’m improving compared to 6 years ago. I realize when I’ve acted wrong and immediately try to fix the situation.

Should I change my name to Mr. Fix it?

Anyway, I was able to speak to my girl on the phone and that gives me comfort. I feel bad when we sometimes I close the phone without a laugh or smile.